One day while praying for myself , I quickly said too myself how selfish you are for only Praying for yourself when there is so much Pain and Sorrow all around us in the world so it was then I started Praying for the World and all of its sufferings . Most of us have encountered something tragic in our life if we have been blessed too have lived long enough too recall most of our life events we have encountered, whether unknowingly by their own Hand’s or by some unforeseen circumstances .
There are some things I don’t understand and I question God’s Plan for myself and why there is so much violence and suffering (Why I ask) and I beg God too save at least one person from the harm of Evil even if its just one person Please save them, I cry!! God there is something more I can do than Just setting here holding my Rosary beads and Pleading for your Mercy and goodness too stop the violence, Evil and hate that is set upon this world. Sometimes I get upset with God as I’m imagining maybe some of you might feel this same experience as I have, if so God understands our Hearts and remember he’s forgiving, so if you feel like yelling and screaming go ahead, God is there for you. I truly think God has a Plan for me in which I know he’s not finished with me yet, so each and everything that has happened too me or yourself whether at the time good or bad , we are in the right spot right at this very Moment and things happen for a reason.
I am not much of a Movie person but in some ways I believe we are all in somewhat of a Movie and God is the Producer (Respectively)
I am a very compassionate person sometimes too a fault, I see good in everyone, Beauty in everything and I trust easily. I love deeply beyond words every creature and every Human being I come across.
Almost as soon as I arrived at a new school the children were somewhat (Cruel if I may) as I was always the new Girl in class in which didn’t help me bond with other Children very easily. I was shy but Kind.
Among the many transfers I remember the most was the time my Father (Ronald E Freels) received orders to transfer from California to Michigan to become the officer in charge of the USCG station in the affluent town of Charlevoix Michigan.
Around 3 years maximum stay we’d be transferred (Sigh) did I finally get accepted by the Classmates, in Fact sometimes becoming the most liked in my Class. I practiced turning the other cheek extremely well.
I’ll write about this of these experience where I was not accepted in the town of Charlevoix I was 12 years old at the time (of all places it was the very Catholic School I so thought i’d be immediately accepted into) I thought what a better place too go too school ! So excited when I saw The Virgin Mary statue as me, my Sister and Mother drove by This Catholic Church and School in our New Town of Charlevoix Michigan. I shouted with Glee (Mom! I’m going too this School!) She objected saying (its too expensive) I didn’t give up and she decided too complain too my Beloved and very Devout Catholic Grandmother, WOW did my Mother get an Earful, I was quickly signed up, Tuition paid, fitted for my Catholic Uniform and placed in the School in less than a week.
Well this certainly didn’t go as I planned, sadly enough these children would be the worst I had encountered yet , so as to escape the Children’s bullying and their antics, I spent many lunch hours hiding inside the Catholic Church and it didn’t stop there, I was then ridiculed by my Classmates for spending time inside the Catholic church for my Lunch hour, as I have written earlier, things even though bad at the time happened for a reason.
Which brings me back too one of the most sad times times in my life in which actually became a good thing . Spending time in the church was my sanctuary and what a better place for me too be spending my time although I surely didn’t realize this at the time. so too this day this unfortunate experience was a Blessing in disguise for I love my Church and too this day its my Sanctuary, This story gets better.
If I thought God wasn’t there, well he certainly was, all my Tears and Prayers and why me lord, were later answered as my Mother applied for a Job at the local hospital in Nursing and was quickly hired into the Hospital little did she or I know she unknowingly and quickly became best Friends with the most Popular girl in my Class, well it wasn’t long until this Girl put two and two together realizing her mother any my mother were quickly becoming best friends at the hospital workplace then her and I became best friends and no one ever picked on me after that and I became accepted very quickly by everyone and everything was perfect after that, so all my prayers setting in that Catholic Church all alone every day . God was there, he was listening. No matter what your religion is be just remember to believe in the Power of Prayer.
I will end this on this note by saying , If you think God is not watching each and every one of us ,he is whether its good or bad (Thy will be done) Faith,love, and determination . Believe in the Power of Prayer don’t give up no matter what it is God is planing for you , I promise this too you